Life . . .

Well, I'm just sitting around on a saturday afternoon, bored out of my mind.  I worked yesterday at Menards and now have the weekend off.  Works going ok.  I don't mind the work.  What I don't like is when you go through training everyone wants you to do things the way they do them.  So I know how to ring most everything up.  But the person standing next to me always has something to say to me about how I should do it there way because it's easier.  Maybe it is for them, but this isn't my first time working, I like to do things my own way!  People were driving me nuts.  I got watched by 6 different ppl when I was checking the past couple days.  After the first 2 hours I pretty much had there system down and knew what I was doing.  The only things I actually had to learn is when people brought up special order forms and stuff for wood.  But once they showed me what to do I was fine.  But  when ever I went to someone knew they would tell me a different way to do things and they would watch over my shoulder to make sure I was doing everything right.  After 3 days of  about 16 hours checking, this lady watched me for my lst hour yesterday and had me leave my checks out so she could make sure I was doing it correctly!  OMG!  It drove me nuts.  I wanted to tell her to walk away and leave me alone.  The only reason I had to be with her is becuase I didn't have numbers yet to have my own drawer.  But I knew what I was doing.  I am fed up with training.  Monday I'm all by myself so that will be great!

So I think I might follow Katie on what she just did.  Maybe I'm not ready to get married yet either!  I mean I always have my doubts about us.  But just put it aside becuase I'm prolly just getting nervous.  But geez he drives me nuts sometimes!  How nice would it be to be single again and do what ever you wanted to do.  Well I guess it can never be the same as it ever was becuase of the baby but still.  How do I know if I'm making the right choice.  I give Katie mad props for going with what she knew was right and to end her realtionship.  What worries me is that if I was in that situation or if I am.... would I have the guts to leave it???

Baby Kaden or Peyton is growing a little more each day.  And he/she is already driving their mother nuts by making her sick, even when she's at work.  He/ she  knows that their the one in control right now!  (Not fair! LoL)  Even though I havent seen, heard or felt him/her I think I'm falling in love with this baby growing inside me.  He/she is all I ever think about..... I can't wait to see my baby for the first time!!!

Can I feel any worse!

hey, so I've been feeling like crap lately!  I feel nausiated (I spelled that  wrong) every day.  It sucks so bad.  I don't know how I'm gonna start working.  The only time I feel good is when I'm sleeping or laying in bed.  I'm pretty sure there's the worse to come.  I haven't threw up yet.  Oh but it will happen!!!  Just give it a few days!!  I like to think all this is worth it...... I hope so!!  It will be... lol!

So I went to the lake this weekend and Kyle was in Forks helping his friend fix his race car. He got into a crash fri and sat.  So saturday was nice at the lake.  It sucks that I can't go on the Jetski, go tubing, wakeboarding or anything! LoL!  But the baby is more important!  I did go for a boat ride and got into some good conversations with Stormi, me and her are really getting along lately!

So saturday night by parents thought it would be good to tell my grandparents...... that I'm pregnant!  So I knew they werent going to be thrilled but I figured they just say congrats or something.  Well not quite.  My grandma was a total bitch about it and said, "well thats what happens when girls like you screw around."  I was shocked, I froze up and didn't know what to do and she pretty much repeated that line, and then I looked at her and said, but I'm happy!  I'm really excited!  and she gave me the nastiest look ever and was just the wicked witch of the west!  So that really sucked.  My parents were pissed at the way my grandma acted but didn't want to go make a scene because it would just cause alot of drama, which makes sense.  My mom said that if she would have been in there she would have let Grandma have it, lol!  I wish she would have.  I was so shocked by her reaction I didn't know what to say.  I kind of wish I would have flipped on her and told how big of a bitch she is and that everyone hates her.  I hate her so much, last summer she called me a slut becuase of rumors going around from my aunts and then this.  What a fucking bitch.  I honestly do not want to invite them to my wedding.  If I can get away with it (meaning if my parents let me) I don't plan on sending them an invitation. and they'll never see there great grandchild if I have anything to say about it!

SO yeah so I slept at the lake and went home the next morning because I couldn't stand to be around them.  My family drives me nuts!  Not my parents or bro and sis's.  But my grandparents, Aunts, Uncles and Cousins!!!  Get some flippin respect for your family people!  Geez!  I remember now why I've conteplated suicide.  Beucase my fucking messed up family who has no respect for anyone else but them selves.  And this it's fun to talk behind peoples back and stir up lies and rumors just to make them selves look better.  there such a disgrace!  Thank goodness I'm on meds..... I seriously will not be sad when those ppl die, especially my grandparents!

Well thats that for today, Brooks fell asleep next to me, so I better carry her in to the bedroom and go to bed myself.

My baby. . .

Hey, so it's been a couple days since I've updated!  Things are really good.  Two days I started about "my friend" the one all of us girls get.  And realized I was late.  So yesterday I woke up and took a pregnancy test.  It was Positive!!! I'm so excited.  So then today I went to the hospital and they took my blood for a pregnancy test and sure enough I am!!!!  So yeah I'm really happy.  Menards still hasn't called me back.  they said they'd call today.  So if i don't hear from them tomorrow I'm gonna call sams club.  I really need a job.  Especially because in about 5 o 6 months I'm not going to be working and then I'm gonna be taking care of my baby!!!!    Oh if it's boy were going to name him Kaden Micheal Richardson!!! isn't that cute!  We don't know about if it's a girl, we'll see though!!

Well I'm exhausted to I'm gonna rest, maybe take a nap.  Oh I have my next doctor appt. on April 26.  And thats when they tell me the due date and make sure my baby is doing well!! SO EXCITED!!!

Hey,so just got home from Grand Forks. I went there this morning for a doctors appointment, so much fun! LoL!  But more medication what else could be better than that! haha!  Yeah but anyway. Everything went good there.  Doubled my dose of medication so hopfully that helps I just am worried about side effect. 

My sister in law Stormi may come to fargo tomorrow to go dress shopping with me!! I'm excited for that.  Stormi is fun to hang out with and she's really easy to talk to. I really want to go Dress shopping too but I'm not going to go by myself and Kyle's at work everyday so I'm so bored!!!! I need a job!  I hope Menards calls me back or Sam's club calls me for an interview!!!

Well I'm gonna eat, Kyle made taco's!  Byebye!